That heart-wrenching feeling.

I can’t help but to literally feel my heart sink whenever he replies other people’s whatever before mine. As much as I’d like to pretend I don’t give a shit, it affects me. It’s like I’m not important, it’s like because he thinks I’ll be here forever, I can wait.

Pardon me for being a whiney bitch of a girlf, you can leave this page if you want, I’m not forcing you to stay.

I know it’s impossible for him to rank me first, but it is nice, to be treated like nothing else matters except me. Isn’t it? 5 years, I’ve been constantly reminding myself, he’s not the regular boyfs you know. He’s not romantic, not so much of a surprise person, not a sweet talker, much less a charmer. I’m not saying that he must be.

He makes me feel like disappearing, just to see if I made a difference.

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