What happened to us? All of us?
Right about this time last year, we were happy and hunting food in Hong Kong. Roaming the streets for cheap buys, climbing mountains to reach the peak. Drinking cheap beer by the sea. It was a happy time. We said we would go back in 5 years to relive those good memories.
Jack and I. Gavin and Jiawei. Jon and Esther.
This time this year, we are all broken and bitter. It’s incredibly tragic because I knew about all the future we have planned. We were all going to get married and live a wonderful life together.
Jack and I, obviously, were going to finish our degrees, go live abroad for a couple of years, send out wedding invitations with plane tickets in it, get married, move to the other side of the world, settle down in a nice humble house, have children and live happily ever after.
Jon and Esther were on their way to getting married. They bought a house together, maybe have some kids and live happily ever after.
Gavin was going to propose to Jiawei with a plastic ring, at the place where they met — SP. Maybe also have some kids, and live happily ever after.
Our kids would grow up together and be amazing friends like their parents were before them.
All of these happy plans are nothing but broken dreams right now. With almost zero hope of fixing anything at all.
Jack has a new girlfriend 2 months after a 7 year relationship with who he called the love of his life. I’m barely hanging in there, trying to piece my life together while preparing for my graduation and life to begin.
Jon moved on with some girl he met. We fell out and are barely speaking to each other. Esther became really bitter and no one really knows what’s going on in her life right now.
Gavin is trying to hang in there, doing everything he can to save the relationship. If anything, Gavin seems like the one with the most hope of fixing things. And even that looks bleak and bitter.
What happened to us? We used to be happier, we have had much much better days. Have we forgotten about those days? Or how far we’ve come with each other? It seems like even years and years of relationship cannot weather bad luck or whatever this is that struck all of us. 2013, aren’t you a cruel, cruel bitch?
This is the last time I’m ever allowing myself to feel like shit about this, ever again.